Missy Jubilee. Fear. Full script


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Episode 40. Fear. Full script


9pm first night of filming

Once in a while, put on your girl’s face

A film of mine that you can show children without fear of arrest …shit just got real

8 hours later

This film was shot over 6 consecutive nights with one camera in front of my main reference monitor while I was remixing the soundtrack for this film

There are a lot of sunglasses involved because it is highly sub-optimal working with bright light shining in my face night after night. There is a reason bright lights are used in torture

End of filming 5am first morning

Monsters don’t live under my bed. They live in my head. So people say

Don’t. Walk. Dance

“off    “off    “off    “off
The    the    the    the
Wall”    wall”    wall”    wall”

This film features Brodinski live at the boiler room in Berlin

I admire his music & his DJ style, and I also like watching him mix while I mix

He could be the sexiest DJ in the world. Focus group of one

An Appaloosa Duck Production

A Missy Jubilee non-naked film

Episode 40 of 250 of the Future Sex Love Art Projekt

Fear & Consequences

I’m Missy Jubilee. And this is me at work. It’s very meta I know

I’m a film maker, artist, experimental writer & sound sculptor

[on t-shirt] peep show princess

As a film maker, my subject is sexuality & the origins of desire

As artists my husband & I are married to a 12 year 250 film projekt to document and un-ravel my secret sexual persona from the age of four to 32 years old as a conceptual art piece

I’m pretty much naked in every film so far except this one

Art naked. Not porn naked. There’s a difference Google

Naked as a metaphor for un-self-shamed female sexuality

Before starting in the film industry I wore clothes. True story

I was a DJ and remix producer. This was my music. This was my thing

But now I just do it for me. And the films I make. Like this one
You may have noticed I’m quite animated when I mix

That’s because I have no fear of the consequences

I think everyone would do crazy stuff if they didn’t…

Fear consequences

I have no fear of the consequences when I create soundscapes

Because I feel. Music. Deep down. Somewhere. It’s cathartic

But with the Future Sex Love Art Projekt

So far out on the edge of experimental art film making

Consequences are all I think about when I’m not doing music

The consequences of this project have been personal to date

I may have lost my parents completely. Not to be dramatic

I am estranged from 95% of my friends. It is what it is

My best friend of 30 years said she couldn’t be a friend anymore

Positives are, I wouldn’t be doing anything else in the world

Our films are studied in universities, art & film schools

Our films are also studied by psychiatrists. I think that’s positive

The consequences are what they are. I knew them going in

In truth, the only consequence I fear

Is not completing the 250 films. Every one as honest as hell

Because my life finally has a purpose. Granted. A weird purpose

7 yrs pre-production. 5 yrs filming. 12 yrs of my life. 2 reasons

1. Un-fuck my head
2. Let all the pretty monsters out

I need to understand who I am and what caused the way I think

And why I carry so much sexual shame around with me

To be


‘whatever begins in anger, ends in shame’ – Benjamin Franklin

This is what I have to do before I die. Can’t go backwards. I’m all in

Because everything I need is on the other side of fear

Note to self, I don’t think I’ve done 250 of anything. Except the obvious

Music01/Brodinski DJ set/House of Vans/Boiler Room Berlin

Game over

Music02/Guns n’ Roses/Sweet Child o’ Mine/Electro mix 2011

Music03/Vintage Culture Remix/In The Air Tonight/Missy Mashup

Try again

Music04/21 Questions/50 Cents/Snbrn Remix

Do I look like a motherfucking role model?

This Is Art
(if you want it to be)

Music04/Get It On Bang A Gong/T.Rex 2012

Music06/Get It On Bang A Gong/Remix 2012


Music07/Mr. Dobalina/Del Tha Funkee Homosapien

Are You Bored?

Music08/Lazyboy/Underwhere Goes Inside The Pants

It is very loud in my head

Ok cool

So there’s this boy

Bite me


Soundtrack Remixed By Missy Jubilee

Available for download at http://www.missyjubilee.com

Part Two

I was born in 1981 in Australia. I am 33 years old

In 1983, the film Risky Business was released

It would be Tom Cruise’s first major Hollywood role

The New York Times said it was ‘part satire, part suburban poetry, part shameless showing off’

Many would call it the best film of 1983

I saw this film when I was 8. I don’t remember where or how. All I remember is the train scene With tom cruise and the prostitute played by Rebecca DeMornay

Phil Collins ‘In The Air Tonight’ was used for this scene

I must have watched that scene 1000 times. Everytime. Chills

The desperate untidy depiction of sexuality & desire, the cinematography, the troglodytic lights & exogenic sounds

This scene is why music in films is important to me

That scene made me want to make films. So I could fix me

Hurt people hurt people. Pain patterns get passed on

I want to break that pattern in my family. And in my life

With the only 3 weapons available to me. Film. Music. Honesty

It is amazing how complete is the delusion that beauty is goodness
-Leo Tolstoy, The Kreutzer Sonata

Where is it deluded to say beauty makes whatever inner ugliness that exists much easier to listen & react kindly to

Six nights in the studio

One film

One remix

One soundscape

One music video

Film is my lover. Music is my bitch

Quack me!



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